Transience

spring

With the return of sunshine, my mood and energy levels have improved. I love this time of year - the flowering trees, tulips, green grass, nesting birds. After winter has sucked me dry and leftme nothing but an empty hull, it is good to feel life seeping back into me. On days when it's cool, with just a few clouds scudding across the azure sky, I feel a sharp surge of joy rush through me. One cloudy morning, though, and depression starts weaseling its way back into my life.

Today I walked around Como Lake with Holly. For as close as I live, I don't take advantage of it nearly enough. They've done so much work restoring native plants and building up the shoreline; it looks completely different. Perhaps this weekend I'll try riding my new bike around the lake; it's rained so much since I bought it Monday that I haven't taken it out of the garage. I suppose I could ride now, but I'm hot and really in the mood to sit and read. Plus, yardwork is calling my name. Does the snik-snik-snik of my lawnmower send prayers skyward, like a Tibetan prayer-wheel?

I haven't know what to write recently, so I've avoided writing anything at all. My new work computer arrived yesterday, so I spent the whole afternoon transferring all my files. They're probably going to move me to a new office & I'm just hoping they don't make me share with my boss; I need to tell the Dean that I just can't handle that.

Mostly, though, I've been thinking. I've spent the past week's evenings thinking about a website I'd like to start - researching software, making up lists of the topics I'd like to include & ways I can use it to make money. I've also been thinking about the 10 Commandments, after we read them on Sunday, and wondering what their role in our lives should be. Growing up, I'd always heard that they applied to Christians, too, but recently I've been wondering. We generally hold to some of them (no killing, adultery is bad, don't steal), but ignore the one about the sabbath (and probably some others). Do any of them have a specific call on our lives as Christians, or have they been superseded (or subsumed) by "Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, mind & strength and love your neighbor as yourself"?

Posted by rachel at June 4, 2004 04:08 PM