Looks like the position mentioned in a previous entry is still open.
I'm surprisingly ok with that. Perhaps because things seem to be in the "I like spending time with you but just don't know..." stage, rather than "you'll never be more than a friend so just suck it up & deal." Perhaps because, after the awkwardness of the DTR conversation, we were still able to have a long, comfortable talk about other, deeper topics we'd never discussed before.
Hell, despite the part of me that longs to rush right in and get to the fun of kissing, my brain tells me that's not always the smartest move. (Especially not for me.) And in the grand scheme of things, how normal is it to have decided in less than 2 months whether you want to commit (even temporarily) to someone? And how often do I follow along with what society tells me is normal?
Yep. Right.
So where are we now? Well, we're getting together on Saturday. And we're going to keep spending time together & having fun & getting to know each other & being friends. And no more DTR's for at least another month.
Why am I writing all this? Because you, gentle reader, may be wondering. And because, for right now, I need to ask you not to ask me how things with TheBoy are going. I am slightly disappointed that he didn't jump at the chance to define things the way I'd like, but at the same time very very glad that we still get to spend time together. He's brought me a lot of joy in the past few months and I can't imagine giving that up simply because he isn't comfortable kissing me tonight. God only knows (literally) what will happen in the future. But I want to enjoy it while I can.
Posted by rachel at August 24, 2005 11:03 PM