Transience

uneasy dreams

I arrived at work this morning and started working my way through a stack of emails and page updates, feeling like I was still entwined in the dreamworld of only an hour or so earlier. It's now almost 2 and I'm still not sure I've fully escaped. Regardless, I feel somewhat out-of-sorts.

In the first dream, I was one of several adults helping a group of children swim. Then something went wrong and the room with the pool started to fill with water, until there was no longer anything but pool. In an attempt to rescue them, we started grabbing kids and pulling them into the elevator, which went up several floors to the hospital. (Hmm. This reminds me just now that I had a dream a month ago involving a swimming pool in a hospital....) When I went down the elevator to get more kids, it started twisting around and turned into a trash compactor. For some reason it stopped before crushing me.

In the second dream, I was back at Carleton and ran into my old friend Drew. Then I realized it was the first day of classes and I didn't know what I was taking or where to go and I couldn't figure out how to find out. Very stressful. This is a dream I have all the time, yet it never gets any easier.

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This morning we planted seeds before breakfast. I'm looking forward to seeing new life that we created. (Well, ok... helped along.....)

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Speaking of change & new beginnings.... any of you want to offer me a job? I got an email from my boss that left me feeling down today, as it seems the new college has little respect for my skills or interest in using them. I'd thought I could stick it out through the transition and that possibly life in the new college would be more interesting. But now I see that, if I stay, I'll probably be relegated to the equivalent of help-desk support for websites. And that's not any fun.

Posted by rachel at March 22, 2006 01:58 PM